PEACE LIKE A WARM BLANKET

Earlier I was holding Nesia in my lap as I fed her a handful of Cheerios and we watched the butterflies in the back yard. A hummingbird also flew by. I began listing a few things out loud that I was thankful for. Her little foot that I've been so blessed to watch grow over the past year and watch stand up, pull up and just last night a stumbled attempt at a step. I was also saying I was thankful for the butterflies and the beauty that we are able to enjoy here at Penhoti. Then I listed knowledge and peace of God on my verbal list of gratitudes. My how far my walk with God has come over the past year and a half!

I was talking with my friend Eleanna yesterday about the medical tests that her barely-two-year-old daughter is going through. I told her that my prayer is for God to comfort a mama's heart and heal a baby girl's body. I was so happy to hear that she is at peace either way the tests go. She said that if they find that Arie does have this disease, then maybe it can be something God can use the rest of her life. 

I think back to when I was given grave medical expectancies when I was pregnant with Nesia. That first few hours I was shell-shocked and numb. Then I reached out and began to ask for prayer from some of my family and friends. That's when the peace came like a warm blanket and covered me fully. I remember my cousin Danielle writing me in a text, "We will thank God for the beautiful baby girl growing inside of you right now and go from there." Right then the pressure of having to have all the answers right that moment was gone. Panic mode switched to off. Right now we thank God and go from there. We start by thanking God. That's the FIRST step. "Okay," I thought, "I can do that." Thanking God and then taking one step at a time after that helped the journey not seem quite so difficult afterall.

Oh the peace!

Even in dire circumstances, being able to embrace whatever the outcome might be, is that comfort and peace like a warm blanket in knowing that God is in control. Getting to that place of ultimate peace no matter what the future holds, I believe is the fertile ground that God uses to make miracles happen. Maybe the TRUE miracle is a deeper relationship with God...

Nesia- three and a half months old- New Years Day 2012