It's time to begin

I'm not sure after all this time that I'm even ready to begin this Blogger stuff. Once upon a time I spent tons of time typing and typing, spilling my guts, tear by tear telling the hurts, struggles and a glimpse of the victory... And. Then. It. Happened... My laptop just cut off. Yup, during the final proof reading after writing over a week. Vanished. Everything was gone. I was already emotionally drained from pouring my entire heart out bit by bit and then in one moment it was gone. Just gone. And I, I was a basket case because of it for the next three hours. Longer actually. My good friend, Courtney told me to not give up and maybe that part was just for me. She and my other friend, Brandi are bloggers and share their stories, the struggles and victories, with the entire world. I read each of their blogs but a part of me, a big part, is so terrified to spread my insides out like a deck of cards for the world to see. To judge. To view me as an awkward sideshow. Ya know, the "junk" that we all want to hide, is a huge part of my story. My miracle story. Not sure I'm quite ready and I'm sure the world is not quite ready. But God has been showing me for a while now that what He has done in my life isn't some small thing. It's huge. Really huge. And maybe, just maybe, it can bring a glimmer of hope to hurting women. Hope where there is no hope. That's what God uses sometimes. A miracle of God in the making...